Before I get into anything, I want everyone to play nice. Please do not leave any nasty comments about my choice to stop breastfeeding. We all have to do what is best for momma and baby.
It has been almost a week since the last time I breast fed my little boy. He is now five months old. It was a tough decision on my part. On one hand, I knew breast milk is better for babies. This is why I worked so hard to give him the breast milk for as long as I could. Up until about a month ago, I hadn’t even considered switching to formula. Then the thoughts of “Would his acid reflux be better if I switched him to formula?” crept in my mind. It kept gnawing at my brain until I gave in to the thought.
Before I get into how the switch went for us, let me tell you what I have been going through. Like I said, my son is 5 months old. Most babies his age can go several hours now between feedings. I believe his acid reflux played into this but he would go a max of 2 hours between feedings during the day and 4 hours at night. Sometimes during the day it was an hour in between. Milk production was not the problem. I was getting worn out plus I have a 3 year old to take care of too. I felt trapped to the house and I couldn’t even keep up with cleaning the house, laundry, etc.
Then there was the fussiness. He would just fuss the whole time he was feeding. That doesn’t help make a mother feel good about feeding her child. On top of it all – his acid reflux. He was constantly spitting up. I cut out dairy and that helped him a little bit but it wasn’t enough. I even tried gluten free for a while, didn’t make a difference. The poor kid couldn’t go 5 minutes without spitting up. Talk about laundry – I was doing his laundry about every other day. Not to mention my laundry, too. The only time I was spit up free was when I was in the shower. He was gaining weight and the doctor said that breast is best so I kept chugging along with it.
Then there was the fear that I had about breastfeeding in public. On one hand, I was scared of someone kicking me out of wherever I was and the main reason was him fussing while eating. I could just hear people’s thoughts if I tried to feed him out and about. So we only made a few outings these past 5 months and I either fed him in the car or the place actually had a nursing station where I could feed him in peace away from everyone.
Now, he is strictly formula fed. It is like God sent a miracle. I tried the formula for spit up and that didn’t really help him but I found that a sensitive formula (due to lactose sensitivity) is working best for him. He still spits up some but it is no where near the amount of spit up before. In between feedings, he may spit up 3 or 4 times – much more manageable.
I can’t express to you how much happier the both of us are. I have a happy baby!! He doesn’t fuss when eating. He actually is satisfied! He will play now and take naps! I personally feel better. I am more rested since he can sleep through the night now. I am just beaming with happiness. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
Have you had a challenge feeding your little one? How did you feel after making some changes? How long did it take you to realize a change needed to be made?